It’s been another busy week around here and I feel like I am just barely holding on as I am hurtled through space and time. I honestly do not remember a time that things have been so utterly busy with nonstop activites, but despite the chaos, I kind of enjoy the pace. Yes, I just admited that I liked this cram packed schedule where my only free moment is when I go to sleep at night.
Take for example a few nights ago…I worked a full day (including skipping lunch) and then worked late because I had a project that needed finishing. I spent 15 hours between the time I left my house and when I returned home again sitting at my desk. It is not something I would want to do everyday, but it is rewarding/motivating knowing how productive that time is in retrospect, even if the project still requires more work. I digress….By the time I walk back through the same doors I left earlier that morning, the children were sound asleep and the hubs was working in his office. The house was quiet and still and the energy much more calm than any I’d experienced all day.
I wasn’t tired, still a little wound up from work, so I threw in The Traveler’s Wife that had just arrived and sat down with the hubs who decided to come watch with me. I can’t say I particularly enjoyed the movie, it was ok, but it wasn’t the movie that made the day for me. Usually after a long and often stressful day my girls are what break me out of ‘work mode.’ This night, there was none of that, nor was there any verbal purging of my day to the hubs (who is often the recipient of my venting to wind down the day). That night, I was just silent and let the movie fill the space of my brain while all the rest just faded into the shadows.
Work-it consumes my days and my girls consume my nights. Weekends are left for everything in between which currently is everything focused outdoors in my yard. It doesn’t feel like there is very much time for me in the routine, but it also doesn’t feel as if there is very much of me left out of the routine. This is my life. This is what I enjoy. I am not new to this schedule or pace, just haven’t had to do it for a while and yet, I am always amazed when it all fits perfectly together. Because at the end of the day, if you can’t come home and just let the day’s events melt away in the arms of someone you love, then what is it all for?
